An Autistic Author

Jacob here again, story time is over and it's time to talk about where I am, how I'm currently feeling about this job, and why I'm leaving. Over in the UK, where the main author of this blog is from, ABA is banned as a form of child abuse. When I learned I was getting this job and excitedly told my friend I'd be helping autistic kids, I was stunned to find out he wasn't excited about me. After learning how the UK classified it, I looked deep into this for a bit. I needed to make money, but I wasn't going to participate in child abuse. I had 6 weeks of paid training, so I decided to keep researching, keep learning and see what happened. 

Hey, this is Jacob, I've contributed before to the politics and ADHD blogs, but this is a first for me. I do NOT have autism (that I'm aware of). I've had some suspicions in the past, but even if I do ADHD rules my life far more than any symptoms that make me consider Autism. Nevertheless, it has become a strong part of my life. About a year ago, my son was diagnosed. We knew he had ADHD already, but he was far from what I've dealt with and there seemed to be more issues than just ADHD. 

Well, guys, it finally happened, for the first time since I went sober I decided to go on a night out. Know how it is, these places serve alcohol and for the longest time I did want to take the risk of going somewhere when I would be tired and there was alcohol.

 Have you ever experienced a disturbing thought that just wouldn't go away? Maybe it was a violent image or a taboo desire that seemed to come out of nowhere. If so, you're not alone. Millions of people experience intrusive thoughts, and they can be both unsettling and distressing. In this post, we'll explore what intrusive thoughts are, why they happen, and what you can do to manage them.

 So this isn't the post that was meant to be here. I was planning to write a post about how I've been using ChatGPT to write content for my AI-powered blog . But instead, I've spent the entirety of today (Tuesday 28th) stuck, crippled with depression. Most of the time I'm doing pretty well these days, but every now and then I just get floored with this deep feeling of loss and darkness.

  This is the second post in this series where I talk about my various mental health struggles and symptoms and how they have evolved over the years. Today, as you will know from the title we are talking about my journey with anxiety!