Relationships, Friendships And More

Recently, well since the start of my relationship, I have been thinking a lot more about relationships in all forms. You have family bonds, you have romantic bond and then you have friendly bonds. Unfortunately for me friends are not something that I have many off.

On top of that the few friends I do have aren't exactly close to me. It is of my own doing, I don't let people close to me. Throughout my life I've been let down so many times, hurt, emotionally beaten that I just don't see the point. I have been used many times in my life, and I refuse to let that happen anymore. There is simply no point in being there for people who aren't there for me.

Most of the time being alone doesn't bother me. You've just got to get on with it, but every now and then I look at groups of friends and wish. I wish that I could connect the way they do. On the other hand the more time you spend watching people the more you realise just how two-faced they are. You have so many people who'll jump on the first opportunity to discredit others that there needs to be no truth. On days when I feel like I have been cheated of the friendships and bonds I could have had. I remember that most people don't actually care, that most people have an agenda.

Not all of my posts are directly related to autism, but they all play a role in helping you understand the way I think. I believe it's important to show that I have most of the normal struggles in life as well as the more complex ones that arise from autism. I hope you all find my blog useful but if not let me know. Let me know why it's not useful and don't be afraid to ask questions.

Thanks for reading,

Ben.