Friends

Hello everyone,

So today was the first time I've been out socially in a couple of weeks and it was good. Even though socialising is hard for me it doesn't stop me.
I try my best to not let the people around me see my anxiety. Its just easier that way to deal with it because when people know they keep asking about it and it just gets worse. Despite that, I still rather enjoy getting out and being around people.

I don't get asked to go out much, sometimes that bothers me, I get lonely like everyone else. I've never been know for going out of my way to get out and about. As I get older that is changing and I'm wanting more friends in person. The only issue is I don't really know how you go about making new friends. It's something that even people who are not on the spectrum struggle with.

It won't stop me from trying, for the most part when something is challenging I makes me work hard. That's probably why I work so well under pressure. But making friends isn't like doing work, or writing an essay, you can't just throw a lot of time and it and it'll work out. Making friends takes skills that for the most part are beyond me. With that being said it doesn't mean that I don't have friends, just I don't see many of my friends.

The word 'friend' means different things to different people. To some it means someone you hang out with lots. To others it means someone who you talk to frequently. There's so other meanings to the word friend but for me it means someone who is there for you. Someone who will listen when you have problems and someone who looks out for you. All of this is returned and that makes the two way relationship that is a friendship. At least for me anyway.

What does the word mean to you?

Thanks for reading,

Spec.