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Wednesday, 6 May 2015

Anything is Possible

Hello everyone,

So today I was reading through my statement that I got when I was 11. Then I found my evaluation done when I started high school and I was amazed.
My statement said that it would be unlikely that I would be able to ever have true social relationships with anyone. It also said that they don't think I'd ever achieve any form of pass on my SATs.
Now moving on to my evaluation that was done when I started high school. The support staff there said that they can't see me ever getting a grade higher than an E. English, maths, science even ICT would all most likely be fails or at best Es.
When I sat my SATs guess what, I passed, in fact, I did very well in all subjects. In high school, I developed friendships, relationships, I got on with staff. Don't get me wrong, I had meltdowns, I had fallouts but it all worked out in the end. Academically in high school I did really well, I had 16 all Bs or Cs. Science, English, maths all Bs. I did a diploma in ICT that was equal to 5 GCSEs, which I got a merit for. When I was younger doctors said I'd never ride a bike, and I fell off so many times but I never gave up. My mum was always there cheering me on, pushing me to keep going and not I ride 15-30 miles each week on my bike.
Now the reason I'm writing this isn't to show off, but to show you all just what is possible if you believe. When you're feeling down and out, when you feel like you can't go on. When you can't see anything positive just remember that if you believe in yourself, in your child anything is possible. I know I wouldn't be half the man I am not without the support of my mum and the rest of my family. Because when I wanted to give in, when I wanted to quit I had a little voice inside of my head telling to keep going, to push through. Then, even at the hardest times when that voice was gone my mum would be there to reassure me, and to motivate me.
Some days I feel like I haven't accomplished much, to say I'm 19 years old. When I don't look back far enough. It's so easy to criticise yourself yet so hard to really feel proud about yourself. If I only look back six months it feels like I haven't accomplished anything at all. I find its hard to keep going, to keep being motivated because I've not followed the usual path. Because I've had a break instead of going right back into education or work. Sometimes people, not just people on the spectrum need a break. I'm lucky enough to be able to take a break thanks to the right benefits being available. Just that doesn't mean that I'm never going to move forward. I'm really looking forward to going back to college this year, doing a HND. Finding my statement has made me proud with how far I've come but I know I can do better. I know I can push harder and really show the doctors just got wrong there were.

Thanks for reading and just remember, anything is possible,

Ben.

2 comments:

  1. You're such an inspiration, Ben! :D

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    1. Thanks but I'm just your average autistic teen

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